Sometimes I really question how I fit into this world, because for the most part I don't really feel as tho I belong. Today was a rough day I had my insecurities broadcast to the entire class, and I'm having a hard time dealing with this self inflicted embarassment. To make matter worse I lost twenty dollars moments after. It was the oddest thing, I had the 20 dollars in my hand one second, and the next it was gone. It makes me sad that I can't even hang onto cash. It's like I'm not capeable to exist. I just feel like hiding. I don't want anyone to see me.

I feel like I'm back in highschool, and no one really cares about me. Ugh. I can't even talk about this. I'm not ready.