Sunday, June 25, 2006

Just When I Think I'm Out...

Well turns out my year of hell isn't quite over just yet. I ended up failing my Clinical Exam, so I have to redo it tomorrow. I managed to pass everything else but failing this is a big blow to my confidence simply because this is the shit I need to know to be a chiropractor. This is my bread and butter and not only did I fail it, I got the lowest mark in the class.

I guess I shouldn't be taking it so close to heart, because I know that my nerves go the better of me. That's why I didn't perform as well as I should have. It's just yet another sign telling me that I have to do something about my anxiety before it destroys my life. I'd love to know why I'm so anxious. It drives me crazy. Anyway, with any luck tomorrow will be the real start to my summer. So, everyone think good thoughts for me tomorrow because I need all the energy I can muster for this one.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Another Year Older and Deeper in Debt

Well school's out for the time being. I somehow managed to make it through the most disasterous year of my life. Wish I could say the same about my hairline, which has seemed to pay the steepest price of all. Even though I'm only 25, and I know I've got a lot of life ahead of me, it's startling to see my youth slipping away. The hairline is retreating, the waistline is exceeding, and the bags under my eyes couldn't be any more obvious. Basically my exterior is really reflecting whats been going on inside my head and bod. I don't know how well I am inside. School has really done a number on me this year to the point where I'm convinced it's broken me on a number of occasions. So I'm taking these 10 weeks (I hope 10 weeks) to focus on me, my health, my sanity, and my outward appearance. I just hope it's enough to recover from this horrible, horrible year.